Shane MacGowan’s widow said she had worried about his death for 35 years because he “pushed the boundaries of what humans can do to their bodies”.
The Pogues frontman, best known for the classic Christmas hit song Fairytale Of New York, died “peacefully” last week at the age of 65.
Irish journalist Victoria Mary Clarke told ITV‘s Good Morning Britain: “I loved standing on the side of the stage watching him. It wasn’t always easy, as you will know, because he pushed the boundaries and he was reckless and he was very unconventional.
Shane MacGowan and Victoria Mary Clarke in 2017
“So it was like watching a racing driver and not knowing if they were going to crash, watching him going on stage.”
MacGowan had been diagnosed with encephalitis following his latest bout of ill-health and after years of alcohol and substance abuse.
Ms Clarke, 57, continued: “I think for most of you watching, the biggest fear you probably have is that you’re going to lose a loved one.
“And it’s going to happen, you can’t really get around that, you all are going to lose a loved one.
“And I know that, for me, I spent many, many years, probably at least 35 years, worrying about losing Shane because he just pushed the boundaries so much of what humans can do to their bodies.
“So I dreaded that, and I thought that I would fall apart, I thought I would die, I thought I would not be able to speak, I thought I’d be comatose or on drugs myself or something like that.
“So I just want you all to know that it’s not as bad as you think it’s going to be. And there’s a huge amount of love that comes your way when you lose someone, that you didn’t really expect. And in my case, you know, I’ve been overwhelmed by how much love and support there is.”